Thoughts About This Blog

This is mostly from a draft that I wrote several months ago. I recently revisited it and made some revisions. It's definitely written more in a style of journaling, and though it's not very well put together, I think my points are still pretty valid and worth sharing.

I try to not occupy my mind with who is or isn't reading what I write, because if I do, I realize that probably not very many people are and even though I said I don't care about the numbers, let's face it. I do.

I didn't create this blog to get popularity, make everyone think I was sooo wise or to draw attention to myself in any way. I didn't really have any specific purpose when I started. I just wanted to share my photography, write about my thoughts and about Jesus and the way He's affected my life.

I have this underlying fear that people have untrue opinions of me and of my life, and maybe I thought that by exposing more of my thoughts to everyone, they wouldn't think bad things about me because they'd see that I really was a genuine person.

But here's the thing: nobody is a genuine person. Everybody hides the parts of their lives that they don't want people to see. I've done it, you've done it, everyone does it.

These past few months, I've gotten really sick of seeing people try to project this perfect persona to their friends and to the world. Don't get me wrong, I'm totally guilty of this. We all want people to think that we have our lives together and that we're always having fun.

There's nothing wrong with wanting to put on your best face for everyone, because who wants to be around someone who's always pointing out the bad things in people? (I'm guilty of this, too) However, when we indirectly lie about the quality of our lives, it gives the people around us a false view of who we are and ultimately leads to dissatisfaction and envy.

I suppose that there really isn't a direct solution to this problem. It's tough enough as it is to understand what someone is trying to convey to you when you are talking to them face to face. At least in this circumstance, you can watch their body language and take in their emotions. When we rely on phones and computers for our main source of talking to people, we eliminate that very important part communication.

I guess the best solution is to just not take any of this too seriously. Of course, I want people to understand what I write in my posts. I want whoever reads my blog to be impacted. I want to pose questions in their minds that they otherwise wouldn't have thought about. I want to inspire and motivate, just like all the blogs I like to read do for me.

With all that said, It's still really hard to know what someone is trying to say if you're not right in front of them. Even after typing all of this, I've read it back to myself and am not fully satisfied with how it makes me sound. I wonder if people will correctly understand what I mean to say. Maybe they will, maybe they won't.

Ultimately, I don't think it really matters. My purpose for this blog is to share my feelings and opinions in hopes that they will enlighten and inspire others. All I can do is work hard and hope for the best.

Thanks for reading, till next time,